What made you stop being an addict?

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

And I can also talk to them now.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

How do flat Earthers explain the existence of other spherical planets?

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

What is the most heartbreaking or sad love story that you ever had (experienced)?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I am interested in gang stalking tactics. How do covert agents use street theater and false narratives to torment targeted individuals?

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Can you explain the difference between fissionable and fissile materials and their role in nuclear power reactors?

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

Can you share a story of someone who had a lucky experience while hitchhiking?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Can you write a poem or short story based on the first image that shows up on Pinterest?

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

Read that again ☝️

What type of sex do women prefer, oral, anal, or vaginal?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Have you ever accidentally seen your mother-in-law doing something that was private to her?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

What kind of person makes you think "how come there are people like that"?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Just keep trying

This was February 2019.

What is your most intimate experience with your best friend?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

What can I do when I'm ugly on both outside and inside? What do I do? Cut myself off from the world to make everyones lives better? I'm a monster. I hurt feelings, and I say what was said to me. I feel like I'm nothing but a burden. What do I do?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Can you share the entire summary of your spiritual life?

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

What is the difference between heaven and heavens?

I did it in my administrator's office.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

What do people aim for when they meditate, and how do they do it properly?

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.